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THE OFFICIAL VENTING + ANTI THREAD: PART TWO


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hope things pick up for you

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Kurtis is right, GP can really help, they usually have at least one who kind of specialises in mental health

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Self-harm is not the one!

I have no idea why I got that bread knife this morning then tried cutting my arm, I kept on telling myself "No, just stop don't do this". I can't believe I went and did that, maybe everything that is going on in my life is becoming really stressful.

don.. i really dont know why you're doing this if you are but you need to allow that shit.

Self harming is only gonna give you a long term visual of the pain that you're going through....you dont want reminders fam.

You got one life to live. Don't waste it being stressed on shit....Trust me on this one, even if shit isn't going your way.

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Self-harm is not the one! I have no idea why I got that bread knife this morning then tried cutting my arm, I kept on telling myself "No, just stop don't do this". I can't believe I went and did that, maybe everything that is going on in my life is becoming really stressful.
don.. i really dont know why you're doing this if you are but you need to allow that shit. Self harming is only gonna give you a long term visual of the pain that you're going through....you dont want reminders fam. You got one life to live. Don't waste it being stressed on shit....Trust me on this one, even if shit isn't going your way.

To be honest I'm surprised I even picked the knife up yesterday and run it across my arm for the first time. Any other time I would never ever consider doing that but with everything thats going on it just happened, it was as if I wasn't in control of the situation and allowed myself to be weak then do it.

I understand what it can do to me long term I've been reading into it over the past few hours. I can't help but be stressed, once something goes wrong the rest just go wrong also, it tends to happen like that with me.

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woah dude...

spoken to anyone about it?

Well I've been seeing a counsellor at uni for the past 2 weeks just to go over a few things that I feel are affecting me, this weeks meeting will be interesting.

WTF

stat what's been going on bro ?

Surprising that its me, uni is doing me in I'm lacking serious motivation to type anything, not knowing how to word something is tough. Work I'm stressed to the high moon with, fuck knows if we'll still be around next year, doesn't help I'm using my wages to pay for my uni fees myself. Was getting back on track with my other half now I'm back to square one.

I wish I never put that knife to my arm and run it across a few times, it gave me no rush or thrill. It left me with more questions than answers, even sat in my room before leaving work and hated that my brother had to see me in this weak, vulnerable state.

Are you close to your family, in both location and in relationship...in those dark times you need to be close to family. And what have your friends said to you about this all, have you spoke to them about it or can you speak to them about it ?

Close to my family in both, have spoke to them a lot on whats been going on, they all stand by me but I dare not even bring up the knife incident this morning to them. Friends well they don't know about what went down this morning but they know about the other stuff and have been supportive.

Its a struggle at the moment.

Boy I hope you get well soon man. If you ever find yourself in that sort of situation again just pick up the phone and talk to someone, even if it's some Samaritans phone line thing.

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woah dude...

spoken to anyone about it?

Well I've been seeing a counsellor at uni for the past 2 weeks just to go over a few things that I feel are affecting me, this weeks meeting will be interesting.

WTF

stat what's been going on bro ?

Surprising that its me, uni is doing me in I'm lacking serious motivation to type anything, not knowing how to word something is tough. Work I'm stressed to the high moon with, fuck knows if we'll still be around next year, doesn't help I'm using my wages to pay for my uni fees myself. Was getting back on track with my other half now I'm back to square one.

I wish I never put that knife to my arm and run it across a few times, it gave me no rush or thrill. It left me with more questions than answers, even sat in my room before leaving work and hated that my brother had to see me in this weak, vulnerable state.

Are you close to your family, in both location and in relationship...in those dark times you need to be close to family. And what have your friends said to you about this all, have you spoke to them about it or can you speak to them about it ?

Close to my family in both, have spoke to them a lot on whats been going on, they all stand by me but I dare not even bring up the knife incident this morning to them. Friends well they don't know about what went down this morning but they know about the other stuff and have been supportive.

Its a struggle at the moment.

Boy I hope you get well soon man. If you ever find yourself in that sort of situation again just pick up the phone and talk to someone, even if it's some Samaritans phone line thing.

Gave them a call soon just before I went to uni, it did help just having someone their neutral and non-judgemental listening to everything I could think of. Firstly need to get myself back on track, girlfriend I'll wait for her to contact me I've done all I can, uni work I will crack on with. Doing 17, 18, 19 even 20 hour days just aren't good for my mind, body and health.

Also thanks again to those wishing me well, it is appreciated.

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I found a fucking iPad in a cab tonight and as much as I don't like myself for it everything in my being is saying give it back

I've got emails and all sorts of deets on the owner, some Nigerian chick called Kika Osunde or something, she likes weave anyway, trying to book tickets and visa back to the Motherland

Every time I think yeah this is sick free iPad no spambot I then think... If I spent like 7-8 bills on a machine and mindlessly left it in a cab I would HOPE someone would return it or I would be fucking PISSED, even if it was a gift or whatever

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I found a fucking iPad in a cab tonight and as much as I don't like myself for it everything in my being is saying give it back

I've got emails and all sorts of deets on the owner, some Nigerian chick called Kika Osunde or something, she likes weave anyway, trying to book tickets and visa back to the Motherland

Every time I think yeah this is sick free iPad no spambot I then think... If I spent like 7-8 bills on a machine and mindlessly left it in a cab I would HOPE someone would return it or I would be fucking PISSED, even if it was a gift or whatever

Do you believe in Karma?

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I found a fucking iPad in a cab tonight and as much as I don't like myself for it everything in my being is saying give it back

I've got emails and all sorts of deets on the owner, some Nigerian chick called Kika Osunde or something, she likes weave anyway, trying to book tickets and visa back to the Motherland

Every time I think yeah this is sick free iPad no spambot I then think... If I spent like 7-8 bills on a machine and mindlessly left it in a cab I would HOPE someone would return it or I would be fucking PISSED, even if it was a gift or whatever

Do you believe in Karma?

No but I don't think it's relevant

I do good things so good things will happen to me I do good things when I think they're good things to do

I will return it I think

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I found a fucking iPad in a cab tonight and as much as I don't like myself for it everything in my being is saying give it back

I've got emails and all sorts of deets on the owner, some Nigerian chick called Kika Osunde or something, she likes weave anyway, trying to book tickets and visa back to the Motherland

Every time I think yeah this is sick free iPad no spambot I then think... If I spent like 7-8 bills on a machine and mindlessly left it in a cab I would HOPE someone would return it or I would be fucking PISSED, even if it was a gift or whatever

Do you believe in Karma?

If I believe that shit, I'd truly convince myself I've done good so I deserve the free iPad.

Nothing to do with karma, it's how you as a person would do in that situation.

Personally, if her personal details are in there, I'd return it quickly.

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