You brought it all flooding back for me.
I had to bring the man dem round to catch some yutes who were pouring lighter fluid under the doors init.
But yea, my ex didn't tell me this but over the years adding 2 & 2 together I think she was raped in there.
I'm certain of it.
1 girl who was staying downstairs her big 30 something wasteman uncle used to stay with her, he wasn't supposed to be there but again no authority doing their job and nobody following curfew.
I wanted to stay there with her but she wanted to do the independent ting not clocking how dangerous a situation it was and obviously so she could fuck who she wanted (I later found out).
What girls don't realise is once you get a name in a place like that it's curtains.
Pretty sure I came one time during her being assaulted, I only just pieced this together recently.
Basically I come upstairs, the same girl downstairs, her cousin, I catch him on the stairs like he is waiting for something, being lookout, looks shook when he sees me.
I think nothing of it at the time but go to open her door, it's locked.
I see her light on and I'm trying her door calling her, no answer.
So down 1 stairs there is a window which leads to a balcony, I went out on the balcony and could see her window open.
Again calling her name, no response.
I was determined now to find out what the fuck was going on, don't ask me why but I stood on the edge of this balcony and reached up and right for her window ledge.
Grabbed it with one hand and caught it with the other.
I'm freehanging from a window ledge, 4 stories up, in pitch black.
I sometimes think about that moment and just shake my head.
Pulled myself up and climbed through the window.
I see her sitting on the bed with her hands over her face.
Asking her why she ain't answering the door, what's wrong etc...
No response, nothing, we ain't in the best of places dem times so I don't wanna push too far, her neighbour knocked the door so I opened the door and just let her in, bounced.
1 ting my boy told me years ago bout when he happened to pass through a yard where man was running train on a girl, said he would see them sitting on the bed with their hands over their face, almost as if the shame was too much to bear.
Same exact reaction I swear, but I never put it all together at the time and she never told me anything like it but I did clock her face change certain time she would go in the kitchen and the old nigga was there.
She was defo scared of this dude.
I'm thinking this nigga musta crept out the room whilst I'm scaling the window, who knows but either way I know there was mad fuckry going on in that place.